10.19.01

I'm about this > < far away from having an utter and complete mental meltdown.

I've got deadlines and timelines and papers and projects piled up in front of me, a house falling apart around me, and a job and accompanying issues threatening to pull me apart at the seams.

I'm about this > < far away from having an utter and complete mental meltdown.

I've been trying to study for my midterm, and I find myself having thoughts like, "It doesn't really matter if I get an A in this class. I don't have to be an honors student. As long as I get a degree, I've accomplished my goal. Man, I wonder what's on television -- it has got to be more interesting that the art of the Roman Empire. Ooh, Stargate SG-1!"

I'm about this > < far away from having an utter and complete mental meltdown.

And the only thing keeping me from melting down is the fact that I don't have time to go crazy.

I've got so much on my plate right now that I don't have time to freak out, break down, seek help, get treatment, and take medication.

I barely have time to keep up with this.

Yesterday & Tomorrow.